Mean girl's

So, there is a lot of talk about bullying these day's. Bullying is a terrible feeling. I have been bullied as a child and sadly a few times as an adult in the work place. I have made an effort to talk to my children about bullying.  I realize it most likely will happen at some point in their lives.  I can honestly say early experiences of bullying have shaped me in to who I am today.  I developed unnecessary fears, a poor self image, self doubt, and low self esteem due to bullying.  I have thought of several of the instances over the years, however, couldn't put my finger on it until recently.  I was bullied.

 As a mother of 2 girl's I pray that they NEVER have to endure some of the situations I encountered.  One specific example would be in 7th grade.  I was new to a school.  A small Christian school at that. Perfect target. My only friend's when starting there were boy's. Not good. The girl's at this school had attended for several years and already had their groups established. I was not about to be included. It was quite obvious.  I can remember purposely not being invited to a birthday party that pretty much every other girl was invited to.  To make matter's worse several mom's found out and attempted to include me.  At this point I was not about to attend.  Although they had good intentions I knew it was out of pity.  Needless to say I stopped attending that school by Christmas, and eventually moved back to my home state of California to finish middle school.  Long story short we returned in 9th grade.  Only with God on my side did I have the courage to go back to the same school, with the same girl's.  I was blessed with a new friend on the first day and we became inseparable for the rest of our high school year's.  The same girl's were actually nicer, more mature, and more accepting.  I often wonder if they had/have any idea how that impacted me?  For years I doubted and avoided relationships due to this one experience.  Praise God I finally believed that others were including me because they actually DID want me there, it was not just out of pity.

As I have matured I have learned that these experiences have shaped me in to who I am, even though it was "the end of the world" while I was going through it. I also know it broke my mother's heart! I am dreading these days for my daughter's, and of course my son.  To my surprise he has mostly mentioned a girl that he thinks is a bully... even to the boy's.  I have also tried to make sure he is not the one bullying.

I believe that some people may be getting irritated with all the talk and media coverage regarding bullying.  I believe it is necessary and so important. It's about time!!!

Mostly what I am trying to convey is that we as parents should be probing and making sure our children are not being bullied.  If we feel like they might be it is important not to minimize it.  I promise it can have long lasting effects.

Next stop... Amish Cheese House!

Over Fall break our family spent a few days at a resort at Grand Lake.  We were able to enjoy the hot tub and the kids loved having a few cable channels, since we do not have cable at home.  My 12 year old would have preferred to watch T.V. the entire time we were there.  Sorry, no can do.  Since there really wasn't much to do I had a grand idea! "Let's drive over to Chouteau to the Amish Cheese House to their anniversary celebration!" Davis was not thrilled, David was unbiased and Sophie was siding with Davis.  I was a little worried because it poured down rain the entire 45 min. drive.  I had no idea what we were going to experience.  I was really worried that it was gong to be a big flop.  Much to my surprise, several other people had the same idea.  I was so happy to see the parking lot full.  We were able to enjoy sandwiches w/ homemade bread, homemade chicken noodle soup, and homemade ice cream.  We also got to ride in a horse drawn Amish buggy because the ran stopped for about 30 minutes.  It was a great experience for the whole family.  We even read a small book about the differences between the Amish and Mennonite's.  There were several of both around the store/restaurant working or shopping.  One neat thing I learned about was the different families that will welcome you in to their home for a traditional Amish dinner.  I can't wait to go back and do this one.  If you get a chance stop by the Chouteau Amish Cheese House!

What does it mean to live simple?

This is such a broad topic! The first thing that comes to mind is simplifying my home. Less stuff to be exact.  Less clutter. Being a good steward of money.  Making use of what we can. Minimizing waste.  Yes, it borders on the movement of  "Being Green".  I believe it is important to be mindful of all the things I've listed.

But before all of these things I have learned that "living simple" can, if I choose, afford me the opportunity and privilege to lead a more Christ centered life.  I am guilty of always rushing around, especially rushing my kids. That is not simple.  I have been working really hard to minimize distractions or in my eyes "living simply" so that I can praise God, pray, study the Bible, and share these things with my family.  I have had to remind myself that: my children do not have to be involved in a sport each season, it is OK to make a mess... a big mess to do a craft with my daughter,  I should sit to nurse instead of trying to multitask and wash dishes while doing so, it's OK to take a nap, the laundry can wait- as long as we have clean underwear :) , and the list can go on.  Letting go of these things or better yet succumbing to some of them has helped me to have a clearer mind.  So for me "living simple" means not over commiting, learning to say no, and consuming and buying less therefore I have less to take care of.  It takes effort! 

What does it mean to you to "live simple"?

Out of the mouth of babes...

At the Dr. office:
Sophie to nurse, refferring to Camille... "she realizes you from when you gave her her shots". (thankfully Camille was in a great mood when this was said)

Sophie to Dr. Mickey... "you took forever" (in reality it was about 3-4 minutes wait time)

Camille: big explosion in pants
Sophie: "Mom was that you?"
Me: "um no, Camille just filled her pants"
Sophie to friend, and a few other parents around: " I wasn't sure because some times she says it's Camille, when it was really her".
Me: Speechless, and I can't believe I just wrote that!

Davis: "two 7th grade girls like me"
Me: " how do you know that?"
Davis: " because they always want to sit by me on the bus"
Me: "do you like either of them?"
Davis: "no"
Me: "why"
Davis: "because they are in 7th grade"
Me: a sigh of relief! and many other mixed emotions!

Davis: " I talked to Mrs. McBride tonight"
Me: "Really, about what?"
Davis: "she asked me if I was a soph. or a jr."
Me: "what!, did you tell her you just turned 12?"
Davis: "she said, "are you kidding me!?"

Sophie: "do I have to marry my first boyfriend?"
Me: " most likely you will not"
Sophie: "how will I know who I am going to marry?, how did you know dad was who you wanted to marry?"
Me thinking: she is only 5, I am not ready for this!!!

And sadly....
Sophie: "she gets all of the attention, everyone thinks she is so cute, I don't like being the big sister"
Me: "oh, honey... you are adorable too, and you can do so many neat things that you are going to be able to teach her. We love you so much"
Sophie: "I just didn't know she would be this cute."
Me: Confused and heartbroken. Any advice is welcome. We're trying our best to make her feel special and not 2nd best. I am grateful she is able to articulate how she feels even though it's a bit heartbreaking.

Life has been a whirlwind...

You would think this was my first baby! There are many things happening a the Brown house... new baby, house for sale= keeping it clean for showings, working as a medical transcriptionist from home, and keeping up with a 5yo. and 12 yo. I am content. I am happy. I wouldn't have it any other way.

One thing I am blessed to be doing each week is attending a Bible study at church on Wednesdays.  I have always wanted to be able to do this.  The study is on "Becoming a Woman of Simplicity".  I have been so encouraged by the verses and illustrations on how God wants us to live simply, more mentally than anything, so that we can make time for him.  Oh how I needed this reminder.  What I am learning is that it is all about BALANCE... and how do I get that??? I pray for discernment.  I need guidance as to what I will say "yes" to and as of late motivation to keep my priorities in order.  The women in my study have been a tremendous blessing too! I only knew a couple of them when it started, and that was only as acquaintances. I have loved getting to know new women and hearing their experiences of living simple.

I hope to be more actively blogging. I love knowing that highlights of my life are being recorded for a future keepsake. Looking back on past blogs has been a treat. I really had forgotten several things that I had written about.

Here are a few photos of the kiddos~ they grow so fast!

Sophie w/ Camille @ 2 months

Our Davis turned 12!!! This face explains it all.

Thanks to encouragement from Elizabeth,  Sophie now loves soccer!

The girls at the Pumpkin Patch!

Cousins 5 days apart are now 12 yo.

Camille

Proud siblings

Maybe she'll find her thumb like big sister???

Proud dad!!!

One of my favorites

Camille is here!!!

We are so thrilled to announce the arrival of Camille Kathyren!  She was born last night, August 2nd, 2010 at 9:13 pm. She weighs 6 lbs. 13oz and is 20 in. long. She has a head full of brown hair. She is so precious. So far she is such a content little girl. She arrived in only 4 pushes! She was screaming as soon as she entered this world and was rooting w/in minutes! I was laughing and smiling from ear to ear during the pushing phase. I can't say that I behaved this way w/ my other 2 births. I was so full of joy! Here are a few pics for you to enjoy. We are so blessed!

Pregnancy pics

My great friend Jeri came over today and took these pics. I am so grateful! I failed to take many pics during my other 2 pregnancies. I really wanted to this time. We had a great time! Thanks Jeri!

The hands of Sophie, Davis, and I

Tidbits about me

1. How often do you go over the speed limit? Very rarely, i was pulled over 3 times in the last year.... only 1 ticket.

2. Do you dance like crazy when no one is looking? No... but I sing like crazy.

3. If you were going to be stuck on a desert island which book, movie, and which CD would you take with you?  Redeeming Love, Sabrina, Norah Jones

4. What did you get in trouble for as a kid? talking in class, talking back, interrupting my mom on the phone, later... skipping school.

5. What really gives you the creeps? pedophiles, spiders

6. What was your favorite toy when you were a kid? Claire Abby, my Cabbage Patch doll, a hand held Pac-Man game, my radio/tape player

7. You run into a friend while shopping. Where were you? Target or thrift store

8. When you fall asleep are you usually on your side, stomach, or back?side while preggo, stomach otherwise

9. If fat or calorie intake were not an issue, what food would you consume the most? McD's french fries, pizza, chocolate cake, ice cream

10. If you could hire one of the following, which would it be: Driver, chef, maid, or stylist? maid

11. What movie have you watched the most? Sabrina and Steel Magnolia's

12. What perfume do you wear? Eternity

13. What was your favorite sitcom growing up? Little House on the Prairie, Brady Bunch, Roseanne (don't judge)

14. What were you doing the last time you had a really good laugh? I was being covered w/ vaseline chest down to bottom of tummy, then wrapped with saran wrap all while naked... again don't judge..... then draped w/ casting strips to make a belly cast of my last pregnancy. Sophie and Moni my SIL got a real kick out of it! Sophie kept saying, "mom, it's just us don't be shy", I plan to post a pic after it's decorated!

15. What was the very first concert I ever attended? Clint Black & Alabama

16. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list? my mom

17. How long does it take you to get ready in the mornings? these days 30 min. or less, hope it's not to obvious

18. When is the last time you went to the mall and what did you buy? March or April to buy a maternity belt

19. Ever go to camp? LOVE camp! Sierra Bible Camp in Ca., and Camp Yamhill in Oregon

20. Do you collect anything? books and cookbooks

Random thoughts Thursday...

• I have already gone to bed once and have already woken up w/ Sciatic nerve pain, swelling, and what I think one may call restless leg syndrome. I hope I am not in for a long night! I barely have energy to write but it helps to pass time while my leg calms down.
• Today was a rough day with Sophie, she wore me out... from back talking, meltdowns, and attempts to manipulate time and time again I was ready to call it a night... however she stalled the whole process for about an hour and a half. She did finally top it off with the mother of all excuses, "mom I can't sleep because my back tickles and I think I should practice my sight words".  I smiled as I once again walked her back to her bedroom for the last time. *I do believe her shinanigans that she pulled today were brought on in part by pain and discomfort brought on by her broken arm. I am hopeful that today will be better.
• I am definitely in nesting mode, mostly in my head, which is very nerve racking. I still have several musts to do before this baby arrives in about 3 weeks... or less.
• I love you BofA, today I am purchasing a van, however, the deposit I made 2 days ago had a hold placed on it until tomorrow, therefore I was going to have to tell the seller of the van to wait 1 more day... needless to say I called customer service and they lifted the hold. I am so grateful! so make sure you don't make large deposits at an ATM or your funds may be tied up.
• Found out this week that I have a moderate case of scoliosis. This explains all the back and sciatic issues I have been having. Since I am pregnant I can't have an x-ray to determine the extent.  I am anxious to learn what I will be able to do to find some relief.  Last night was rough! I told David that I can now see how people can become addicted to pain medications when they are dealing with chronic pain. Anyone who suffers from chronic pain my heart is aching for you!
• I've had to apologize to my kids more than once for being so grumpy, and thats an understatement, Sophie informed me that I was grumpy before I was pregnant, then followed it with asking what grumpy meant, thank goodness! My feelings were saved from being crushed.
• Tomorrow Sophie will be getting a cast on her left arm for a buckle fracture. She is not happy about it.
• Spent to much on school supplies for Davis today, and I used coupons and shopped 2 sales! 
• I learned that I am 2cm dilated and 50% effaced today. I knew I felt different. I did not dilate with either of my other two so I was excited about this. I hope I go on my own, however, we did schedule an induction for August 2nd, so there is now an end in sight!
• This post was compiled over a 24 hour period! 

Well it's about time....

I posted some pics of me pregnant! I have been putting it off and putting it off! So tonight my dear Sophie took some photos of me. My hair is a mess and I have on the worst shirt. But here it goes... I had to document this sometime, somewhere. While she was snapping away I mentioned how bad I looked and she reminded me, " no you don't mom, your toes are so pretty that I painted."
Perhaps before I have this baby I will get some decent pics... until then this will have to do.

35 weeks

Reading!!!

Tonight Sophie had a very difficult time going to sleep.  After making her lay in bed for 45 minutes, I caved. I realized she had napped really late today and like anyone else really could not fall asleep yet. So, since there is hardly anything appropriate on TV we resorted to reading, as we often do.  She chose a Bob Book we got at the library this week.  We have tried reading several times, but not too much pressure. Well tonight she read the whole book! With very little help! I was so excited. It is such a joy to watch children grow and learn! I am so glad I caved tonight.

Our 24 family Ways

  A few years ago when I started researching home-schooling I discovered the Clarkson family.  They have a ministry for Educating the Wholehearted Child.  I just love their materials!  I ordered the book Our 24 Family Ways, which is a series of devotions based around their 24 ways in which to instill Christian values in their children and family.
 Well, we used the book for awhile, then put it away for awhile.  We strive to have a devotion after/during dinner. Lately we have been using Meal Time Moments.  Tonight I got Our 24 Family Ways out.  I remembered they had a Way centered around choosing to be gracious even when we don't feel like it. Lately in our family this is something we have struggled with, therefore we started here.  The first lesson was great! There are 4 more to follow.  Sophie is our accountability girl, she makes sure we continue our devotions, I love that about her.  Davis had some very great points tonight, emphasizing that one who is wise is also mature.  The first lesson happened to emphasize worldly wisdom verses Godly wisdom.
  So, as I mentioned above the topic of home-schooling. We will be home-schooling Sophie in the fall.  One might ask... but why? There are many reasons...that will be in another post.  We are excited for the fall! More on that to come.  Davis will not be home-schooled, he is in no way interested at this point.
  If you are interested in the Clarkson's materials I believe you have to purchase them online or order them through Mardels.
  Have a blessed day!!!

Random thoughts Thursday...

I have a new thrift store desk, $15 desk that is. It sits in my bedroom, small bedroom, so I can now work from home doing Medical Transcription. I am so blessed.

Since starting Medical Transcription I have learned more about grammar, Word, Excel... sort of, and of course medical terminology than I ever imagined. I like it.

Having gestational diabetes is a full time job. I start insulin shots tomorrow. I am not pleased. I had no idea what diabetes entailed, when you are trying to manage it... unfortunetely some people don't. I pray there is a cure for the children and those who have dealt with it way longer than I. I pray mine goes away when the baby arrives.

My daughter is so full of surprises! She keeps us on our toes around here. From her crazy questions and comments to her neverending obsession with "projects" and the weather. I'm afraid her husband will have to get used to numerous unfinished projects all over the house. I love her creativity!

David is teaching Bible Class for the first time on Sunday. I am proud. He will do great! Something tells me completing a CR step study had a little hand in giving him the confidence to say YES, when asked.

French Bulldogs are wonderful.

I am often perplexed by comments on facebook informing everyone of alcohol intake... one is a family member.

I love my new white w/ pink Texas Longhorn hat that my aunt brought me from Texas.

In 4 years I will have been married 20 years! How does that happen... God... thats how that happens. Oh and commitment :) Plus, I will have a 15 year old, 8 year old, and 3 year old. Will I ever have empty nest syndrome? Not for a long time!

The final countdown....

For some reason I feel like I am in the final countdown of this pregnancy, 9 weeks to go. Maybe it's because I go to appointments every 2 weeks now, I don't know. Or, perhaps it's because I am so ready to be finished. I was never this anxious with my other two, but then again they were a breeze compared to this one.

Many have asked how I am doing. Well, it varies from day to day. Most days are good. I am still battling to keep my glucose level below 120. I have until Friday to bring it up, otherwise I will start the shots. So far I am measuring only a week ahead, which is good. My prayer is that the baby does not grow to big, so I can have the birth experience I am praying for. As of Monday I am off of "modified bed rest!"

Am I going back to work? Not teaching. I am working as a medical transcriptionist from home. It is very interesting and challenging all at the same time. I was blessed to have this opportunity to stay home and work, thank you God!

Tomorrow my aunt arrives from Abilene! We are all looking forward to her visit. She will be making me some cloth diapers while she is here. I am so excited!

Off to put Sophie back to bed.... that silly girl!

If you want to laugh out loud you must watch this one!

Way Random.....

I've been meaning to write some things down that are so random, but what better place than to do it than here? Right? I mean it's 1:12 am, why shouldn't I get back to sleep.....

• I've been questioned by Oregon friends, "Why on earth would I want to live in a tornado hazardous state?", does anyone have a good answer? I tell them because we love the people, it's a great place for our family, we have roots here, family, and the odds of getting hit are very slim.... Really, I love Edmond! It's a great place! I did fail to mention the hail storm we endured today...
• I am addicted/craving so many foods these days. Due to my diet restrictions, that have grown since learning I have Gestational Diabetes, I can still consume raw almonds, ICE from Sonic, rice cakes w/ peanut butter, roast and potatoes, cucumbers, carrots... I'm seeing a crunchy theme here :)
• I am learning what it is like to have a child smack dab in the middle of puberty, and I'm somewhat grateful for having "puberty" to blame it on, it helps me chuckle when he is acting so ridiculous. I also love hearing his perspective. So far he will actually talk about it. Tonight he did get very angry with me when I mentioned a girl that he has liked for over a year. It was so funny, but I had to stop due to fearing my safety. Later in the evening Sophie wanted to know what puberty meant, Davis was quick to tell her she would experience it about age 10, because girls start it sooner. Thanks son, I had forgotten that. She was excited, and wanted to know what would happen, it was a very fun conversation that I'm sure she will not forget, and I will be reminded often!
• This little girl inside of me is so active at night. So far no hiccups. She seems to twist and turn mostly. I did learn she is head down and low at the last US, I believe it! I'm praying that is why I have such sciatic nerve pain, and it will instantly disappear when she is birthed.
• We are hosting a new student from Panama, she is great! She will only be with us for 2 weeks, while her current homestay is in Boston.
• I currently need a new dishwasher and washer. One leaks and one won't spin :(
• I'm planning to cloth diaper this time around. Better get a new washer first!
• No stretch marks yet, keeping my fingers crossed.
• I love our new floors in the dining and hallway, maybe I'll post a pic someday. The are honey colored.
• My room is a wreck, when I clean, everything gets thrown in there, I know, I know I am breaking all decorating rules. My bedroom should be a comfortable place to go, I'll add that one to the list.
• I am so grateful for friends who have given us much needed baby items. I am still looking to borrow a bassinet, just in case any of my readers know of one????
• Thank you to my hubs for letting me use the much coveted pillow, that we usually fight over, every night. It means more than you think. I know you don't read this, but just in case.
• I am still in awe watching seniors graduate, seniors I babysat when they they were 2. One in particular who actually slept in bed w/ David and I for 2 nights, my first experience sleeping w/ a toddler breathing in my face all night, BTW. Now you are like 6'3 or so.... how does that happen Lee? Not to mention my little flower girl, Meagan, who is on the verge of becoming engaged. I guess I am 36, that's how that happens.
• It is now 1:40 am, I must return to my favorite pillow, that is if it is still available....

This is pretty neat! Thanks Amy!

My cousin Amy posted this, just had to share!

Pregnancy Update...

Remember this is for me to remember too. I hate to bore you with all the pregnancy tidbits, but I know I will forget if I don't log it somewhere. I am actually feeling pretty good... for the most part. I still have several sciatic nerve flair ups each day, which at times bring me to tears, literally. I have come to grips that they will continue until the end, so I have learned to grin and bear it. In addition today I learned that I have gestational diabetes too ...oh joy. I will see a nutritionist next week, as well as, starting the finger pricking to test my blood sugar. Prayerfully it will be controlled by diet, otherwise, I will have to take insulin.

On a more positive note... we will be enjoying a traditional Chinese dinner tomorrow prepared by our Chinese students, who will be departing on Tuesday morning. I believe they are going to make us Chinese Dumplings!

Last but not least I have new flooring in my dining area and hallway, thanks to the hubs, Davis, Sophie, and my mom. They have labored to get it done this past week. I love it!

Random thoughts Thursday... technically it's Friday

• This wind is incredible, annoying and I would like for it to stop.
• Upon my Dr.'s order's I started "swimming" today. Actually I just walk around. I am hoping to relieve the Sciatica that I have been battling, which has gotten progressively worse I might add,  have some felt some relief today, however, developed a painful groin due to exercising new muscles I guess.
• Got a call today that I have high glucose results, I go back Wednesday for a 3 hour glucose test. I am praying that it was an isolated thing and that I don't have Gestational Diabetes, I'd rather not add that to my list.
• I have an ultrasound in the morning to check the placental tear and growth of the baby
• I have a friend who recently found out she was pregnant, when Sophie learned about this she asked, " did she take her temperature on the pee pee stick like you did mommy?", she continued to ask HOW does a mommy know when she might have a baby in her tummy.... that was fun explaining, I'll spare those details. 
• David is still feeling the after effects in running in the OKC Marathon Relay coupled with playing basketball that afternoon ... his neck and back have been giving him fits to say the least
• Davis is wrapping up OCCT testing tomorrow. Tonight he informed me that there were 4-5 questions over Shay's Rebellion, he said they barely covered it in class, he was so frustrated. I could not remember any details about Shay's Rebellion, however,  I do remember learning something about it... back in the day
• We have 3 caterpillars captured, we are hoping to witness a cocoon and butterfly appearance, with my luck they will be plain ol' moths, but a beautiful transformation, none the less
• We also have a bird nest on our back deck with 6 birds that have hatched, I am afraid the mother has abandoned the nest. The last 2 days when I have looked, from a distance, w/o touching etc... she has not been there :( I'm hoping I am wrong.
• Well, I got up to take Tylenol for Sciatica, I am finally feeling relief, better head back to bed...

Way Back Wednesday...

So I don't usually post for Way Back Wednesday, but... Sophie saw this pick and said "I hope I can be a cheerleader like you mommy, and be on the top". I tried to explain that we were actually being silly. I wanted to whip out pics of my actual cheerleading days and show her a "real pyramid", but oh wait... I was always a spotter, never the flyer on top :) 


I love this pic! It's looks like I was having the time of my life. It was in 4th grade. I so remember that shirt and those jeans, I think I wore them every other day. That was my tomboy phase. Behind me was a massive oak tree, it was the important meeting place of many events in my elementary years. Oh, those were the days!!!

Overdue Birth Story of Sophie Marlana

As my pregnancy of this third little one progresses I have reflected so much on the birth of my last one, Sophie. I realized I had never written a Birth Story documenting the amazing experience I had with her birth. So here it goes, almost five years later. I remember it like it was yesterday actually.

After giving birth to Davis in 98, with every intervention possible, except for a c-section, I soon began to educate myself on the whole process of birth. Davis was a rather large baby at 9.3 lbs. . I wouldn't trade his birth for anything, even though it was a very difficult one. His birth urged me to explore other alternatives and led me to becoming a Doula. Little did I know it would be almost 7 years before I got to put in to practice all of the new things I had learned.

My goal with Sophie was to have a natural/unmedicated birth with my husband and a Doula to guide me through the whole process. My sister-in-law Moni eagerly began educating herself on the techniques. I knew she would be great, I wasn't even worried about how much she knew, I was so confident in her nurturing personality to help us through the birth, and she did amazing! David was extremely supportive and was willing to try ANYTHING to make me comfortable, even when it was not so comfortable, and at times back breaking on his part. He stayed active and involved the whole 18+ hours we labored to bring Sophie in to this world. I say We because I believe it was only possible to accomplish what I did with God and the support of these two people.

We arrived at the hospital around 6 AM for a scheduled induction on August the 17th. The Pitocin was started at a very low dose to get things going. It seemed so easy at first. It was a very slow process, which was actually good, since I did not plan to have an epidural. My Dr.  wanted to break my water around 8:30, however, I declined, knowing that it would kick things in to gear very fast and I didn't think I was ready. Needless to say it was not broken until 3pm or so. In between 8-3 we walked the halls, changed positions too many times to count, and I sat on my birth ball most of the time. We listened to my Enya CD's over and over. Ironically Sophie loves to listen to them too. David was so cooperative and encouraging with all of my requests and frequent changes of positions. Moni was encouraging and emotionally and physically supportive through all of my requests too. She was good at reminding me to remember to breathe and reminding me of my goal and the beautiful baby I would be holding in the end. Once my water was broke, around 3pm, things did not take off like I had hoped. I continued to progress slowly. We continued to move around and I wasn't in the bed very much. As the night continued I finally started to have the unbearable contractions. I was allowed to sit in the shower, on my birth ball, while Moni sprayed my belly with the spray nozzle. Thank goodness I was allowed to do this, I believe it was at least an hour that I stayed in there. I was still doing very well. The amazing thing about birthing is there is a break in between surges (contractions) that gives you the needed relief. I clung to those. As I progressed we learned that I had come to a halt. I stayed at an 8 for at least an hour or more. This is when one of my nurses checked me to see if she could "help things along", this is also when the demon possessed Michelle was introduced :) Not sure what she did but it hurt more than anything I had ever experienced. I began wanting an epidural, I began to panic!!! Transition had arrived... I was beside myself! Moni stepped out in to the hall leaving David and I alone for a few minutes while she talked to the nurses. I'm sure she was asking them " what the heck do I do with her now?" I was demanding an epidural, but what I was being told was it would be at least 30 minutes before the anesthesiologist would even get there... it would most likely be to late. So in those few moments while she was out of the room I started having the urge to push. I screamed to David that the baby was coming out now! Needless to say he got a little terrified, to say the least, and hurried to get the nurses. After returning to the  room he actually fainted. The nurse checked and low and behold little Sophie was on her way. Several nurses began attending to David, and I actually began to calm down. They called the Dr. and I was just holding on until she got there. At this point it had been 18 hours and we were in to the next day. The pushing stage was much more manageable. I would bear down and actually was screaming/grunting very loudly (so loud I'm sure it could be heard down the hall and one nurse said "don't make that noise" it was impossible not to, and my Dr. said those were my best pushes, so keep doing it!) then simply lay back and sleep. I was totally focused and able to ignore what was going on around me... chatter between the Dr. and nurses, and all the attention being given to David. It did take at least an hour of pushing, but it felt more like 20-30 minutes. Finally little Sophie came in to the world at 3:18 on August 18th 2005. I felt amazing afterwards, tired yes, but I was so alert and full of unexplained energy. I was able to nurse her immediately like I had hoped for, she wasn't even cleaned off yet. Then of course they had to take her and weigh her etc... She also had some fluid that she had to have suctioned a few times. Otherwise it was the birth experience I had imagined and hoped for. It was so amazing. Note* David was taken down to the ER for IV fluids after seeing Sophie. He recovered well. They were worried because his pulse would not come up. He plans to not faint this time around :)

So, in about 16 weeks I will be going through this again. I have the same plan, however, this time around I am planning to try Hypnobirthing as well. I hope to keep from "freaking out" during transition. I pray that I can stay focused and I pray it will be less than 19 hours this time around. I plan to NOT be induced, unless absolutely necessary. I can't wait to write a more accurate birth story for our baby girl in the weeks to come.... stayed tuned :)

Highlights of my 35th year of life...

• Witnessed my son being baptized
• Began following a Gluten Free diet
• Let go from a teaching job due to budget cuts
• Found new teaching job before school was even out, what a blessing!
• Went to LTC in Dallas for the 2nd year
• Finally painted my living room/dining room after 4 years of contemplating
• Served as female ministry leader for CR
• Witnessed Sophie cutting her head open, requiring stitches
• Learned to live with a drum set in the house
• Sold my van and got a Volvo... my favorite sedan
• Ate more ice cream than necessary (a pregnancy favorite)
• Refrained from eating out 2 months, not consecutive
• Paid more Dr. bills than I ever care to
• Paid off a vehicle
• Hosted two students from China in my home for 7 months
• Cooked more at home
• Started using coupons
• Prayed more
• Read more blogs
• Attended The CR Summit in California, it was amazing! This year I am due to have a baby the same weekend
• In December found out I am expecting our 3rd child... very surprised! DD 8.10.10
• Experienced bedrest/modified bedrest, which has been a challenge
• Had more ultrasounds than ever, and will continue to until August
• Attended the least amount of movies than I ever have in many years :(
• Had a massage for only the 3rd time in my life and the last one was 10 yrs. ago

Before I forget...

Today in the car Sophie had set a drink on the middle section, as I drove off naturally it went flying off and spilling on the ground. With a stern voice I told Sophie that we do not leave drinks there... her answer for me... "Well if you wouldn't drive so crazy it would have never happened". For the record I was not driving crazy, I was simply pulling out of the neighborhood. I had to speak sternly to her again.

Sophie: "Mom, you will be so glad at me!"

Sophie: " Mom, there are mosquito bites flying around everywhere"

I wish I had funny quotes that Davis said, but at age 11 he really doesn't have many. The funniest thing lately is how he acts when he thinks no one is watching... like when he is making a video. It's hilarious to watch his facial expressions!

Just curious...

Who is it that reads my blog everyday... pretty much... that lives in Yukon???

Yes, I am up yet again at 4 am, in pain, as usual. I'll spare the details.Waiting for my medicine to kick in. This baby is flopping all over, so that's a nice reminder that this is all worth it! Oh, the joys of pregnancy, and at 36 ... can't help but think this is a factor in several of my "complications". Pretty sure this is the last one for us.

Better try to get back to sleep!

Random Thoughts...

Today I pulled in to the nearby park to wait for Davis to get out of school, while waiting 3 teenaged boy's were arrested right next to our car. Sophie was so intrigued, of course, what 4 year old wouldn't be? She wanted to know what the Police were looking for... I said "bad things"... I had a hard time fighting back tears for these boy's. They looked pretty "normal". I'm pretty sure they must of had drugs on them because the officers were searching the car, really good! And they made them take off shoes etc... So when Davis finally arrived, he was afraid to even walk in our direction. Needless to say I was able to use this as a teachable moment. I emphasized the importance of who you choose as friends etc... I told him that this day will change the rest of the lives for these boys... finding a job, going to college, etc... it made me very sad. We prayed for them at dinner tonight.

Sophie fell asleep at 7pm tonight, after having a meltdown...crying that she didn't want to fall asleep. It was too funny, she knew her body was giving in, she laid on the couch and was asleep w/in 3 minutes.

The baby is moving all the time! I love this part of being pregnant! Some of the other stuff...not so much.

My aunt returned safely from Cambodia, she had a great time!

My son is obsessed w/ making videos of himself on my Mac, he is actually very good for an 11 year old. He has taught himself to add music, splice it all together, and way more that I do not understand. I can't believe he has had the patience to sit and do all of this.

My birthday is next week and I have requested special yard work projects to be done, and I would like for someone to paint my bedroom... maybe I am nesting vicariously through others :)

Girls and their Daddies

I lost my father to cancer at the age of 9. I have very fond memories of him and how he treated me. I can remember him always having the time when I wanted him or needed to talk to him about something, no matter how silly it was at my young age... Some of my special memories are him taking me to the Saturday Flea Market and always buying me a cheap birthstone ring I wanted, buying and fixing my bike when it broke, eating peanut butter with me on a spoon at wee hours in the mornings while watching a Western on TV, taking me to numerous baseball games that my nephews were playing in, and taking me to Disneyland, and the list could go on.


So today I was reading LifeInGrace and she had a post about her girls and their daddy. I decided to write one similar. 

Having shared about my short experience with my own father I couldn't help but think of Sophie and her own daddy. They have a wonderful relationship. As much as I hate to admit it she prefers him over me most of the time. He is so patient with her and I have yet to see him get annoyed with the attention that she so desires. Believe it or not she prefers him to go to the bathroom with her (she has major BM issues...still, and needs a lot of moral support. smile.) For some reason she thinks he is much more supportive than I... perhaps because I rush her at times, shame on me. Sophie likes to do anything and everything with him, from riding in the his truck over my car, sitting by him at dinner, and even "working" on household projects... It really is a wonderful thing for me to see. I am so blessed to have a husband who is fulfilling this role.

     Perhaps I will write more later on Mothers and their Sons...

Homemade Dish/ Laundry Soap

I attempted to make my first batch of laundry soap last week. Why, you say??? To save money, why else? So far I am pleased with the laundry soap, not so much with the dishwasher soap.


How To:
Grate one bar of soap (your choice) many recommend Ivory.


Mix 1 cup Borax w/ 1 cup of Washing Soda.
Add grated soap. 


Use 2 Tablespoons per load.


* I had a hard time finding the Washing Soda, finally found it at Homeland.

Yes, it's 3:28 AM on Tuesday morning...

What better thing to do than update my blog. And,WOW!!!, I just discovered new features of composing a post.

So to the right here we have an old snow pic, from the last snow, hence the failed attempt at Christmas lights on the tree behind Sophie. I just had to include a pic of some kind...

So, I am still on modified bed rest/ house arrest, which means I am not returning to work anytime soon. The bedrest was brought on by a tear in my placenta and contractions. I am so glad I do not have to be confined to my bed, and even have permission to go out for a short period, as long as I am sitting most of that time. It's still very difficult at home to make myself not do laundry, clean, etc... especially since the nesting syndrome has set in .... and I really don't remember it with the last two??? Anywhoo, my mom has ben a tremendous help cooking and keeping up w/ our laundry.

Last Friday we had our 20 week ultrasound with the high risk Dr. That was an event in of itself. It took about 2 1/2 hours, most of that being wait time. During this wait time my body decided to have stomach issues. I guess I was  in the right place, a Dr. office... Miraculously I was better by the time we actually went in to the room for the US. Oh, did I mention we took Sophie and Davis, boy they sure had fun waiting over an hour and being quiet... So upon entering the exam room I got upon the bed, that actually had stir-ups, and waited while nurse Sophie took over. She insisted I put my feet in the stir-ups, which actually wasn't necessary, then she proceeded to ask "there... you comfy now?" I refrained from telling her I didn't know any woman who was actually "comfy" when she had her feet in stir-ups, but I just followed her orders. Her father was very amused. Then she wanted to check out/look at all the gadgets of the machines etc... not too harmful I guess. All the while Davis was just sitting apprehensively in the corner of the room. So, eventually we were able to see the little baby on the big screen. Everything looked great (except for tear) and we all ooohed and aaahed.... It was confirmed 99.7% to be a baby girl. We finally got out of there are headed home...

I think I will attempt to go back to bed. Goodnight.

SoCoS: Ice Cream

To learn about SoCoS...

Ice Cream:This might be easy, I absolutely LOVE ice cream. Baskin Robbins to be exact. I worked there during high school. My faves are World Class Chocolate (mostly white) and Jamocha Almond Fydge. My mouth is watering just thinking about a double dip right now. I also love homemade ice cream, but have not yet tried to make it myself. As a child we had an old ice cream maker and I would sit on the patio on hot summer days in California churning that thing. It was always vanilla. Ice cream with cake is a must on a birthday. I will compromise and eat Braum's if I don't have enough money for BR. Hit a road block...TIME! 3:37

Tuesday Truth's... OK Kayla, I'll jump on the bandwagon...

I've read several of Kayla's "Tuesday Truth's", so now I'll give it a go for myself. I may not go as "naked" as Kayla has, but here is a start.

DEPRESSION:

Since taking Prometrium and now taking Progesterone injections, I have had my share of Depression ( a possible side effect). It sure is no fun!!! I have heard the feelings described but could never relate. Well, I can now. It comes in waves, and most of the time I'm feeling pretty good. I have had my share of unexplainable crying, and just feeling down and out, and very irritable; even when I'm alone. Yesterday, I told my mom about it, it was so nice to talk to someone about it. What I've noticed is that I don't feel this way for any specific reason.. such as kids acting up, argument w/ hubby, etc... I just do. This is how I knew. I'm not sure if I'm making much sense at all, but I'm sure you get the idea...

I am still on modified bed rest, and I've been trying to stay as inactive as possible. I am so blessed to have my mom here to help me, and she has gone above and beyond!

So, "depression hurts" rings true... but I know it will get better. I'm glad for now it seems to be more like "bouts" of depression for me. Right now I feel really good. Thanks for listening!

Baby Name Vote!!!

Check my sidebar to vote for baby names!!! Thank you!

I got these for the baby....

Sophie after returning from outside....

Sophie: "Mom, I got these for the baby!"
Me: "Oh, let me see, what are they?"
Sophie: " A stick, a rock, and an acorn. I'm going to go wash them off right now!"
Me: "I'm sure the baby will love them"

Random Thoughts...

My dog snores VERY loud!

David has been very sick Sun-Wed, only the 3rd time in 16 years of marriage, what a blessing!

My aunt, age 73, left for Cambodia today to teach English using the Bible, this is one more of many mission trips she has made over the years. If you every want to do missions but think you can't consider this... she is a single woman and has been at it for over 30 years, and she has no plans of stopping any time soon.

I've discovered a new blog I love to read, Alamode, check it out on my sidebar, she's great!

I know what we are having, but until March 19th, my next ultrasound and my anniversary of 16 years I am waiting to announce, that is if you don't hear from Sophie before then :)

I am planning to make my own laundry soap and dishwashing soap soon, I'll let you know how that goes!

I am thrilled that I am going to be able to watch Oklahoma Christian's Spring Sing on the internet tomorrow night. I can't wait to see Meagan Branch (our flower girl) perform. By the way, when Sophie first saw our wedding pics (age 2 or so) she thought Meagan was her... she said look at my pretty dress :)

Davis can rest easy, the 5th grade Writing Test is over, gone, done with. He was soooo worried about it, kind of made me happy to see that he was taking it so serious. He surprises me everyday.

Randomness will end now. I promise I can think pretty random thoughts sitting at home for hours :)

You may hear more from me in the days to come... Pregnancy issues

I heart blogging, I really do. I just can't find the time to squeeze it in when I work and carry on with other responsibilities. Oh, and I LOVE to read other blogs too... Somehow I find a little time to do that every few days.

So, this pregnancy has proved to be somewhat eventful. From all the Progesterone deficiencies, and the symptoms that go along with that, to now what I am dealing with. I've had more spotting in the last 2 weeks, so I called the Dr. Tuesday morning. They wanted me in for an ultrasound/exam at noon. A small tear was detected on the placenta. I left thinking that it was no biggie, then got a call a couple of hours later with a little different news. With all the trouble of low progesterone it can affect the development of the lining and placenta. Therefore, I started Prog. injections yesterday and I am on a modified version of bed rest so the tear can heal. I'm pretty much home bound with my feet up until the end of next week when I will have yet another ultrasound. I actually feel pretty good physically speaking. Slight cramping is all. Emotionally I am doing pretty good, especially since the symptoms have subsided some. Please pray. Thank you.

On another note, I hope to blog a little more. On to my next post. Random thoughts Thursday!

Baby #3 at 17 weeks and counting...

Well, so far I have no belly shots! Shame on me :( Here is a recent US of the little one...

Who would have known this little blessing could already look like this at 12 weeks? I have never had an ultrasound at this week so I was surprised. Things are progressing well. That was nice to hear. 28 more weeks to go! That should fly by...or not.

On another note we are all buckled down for another ice storm in Oklahoma City! All schools are cancelled and we've been warned that there will be a lot of power outages... we were fortunate enough not to have lost power during the Icestorm of 2007. Hopefully not this time either :(

I must forge on...

I have not been absent from blogland, just not actively participating. This last week has been horrible for me. I won't bore you with the details but basically my body does not react well to Prometrium, the medicine I've been taking for several weeks, to aid in keeping this little baby where it needs to be. After visiting the Dr. 2 days in a row with symptoms that can only be described as flu like, I spent the majority of this last week homebound and recliner bound. I'm not sure I have ever felt so weak and tired, even after 20 hours of labor and delivering my last baby. Needless to say I took my last dose of Prometrium Friday night. I am praying that my symptoms start to reside. So far things are in the below average range, but not misery, thank goodness. I am starting my twelfth week so that should help too. Placenta take over please!

Cotton Pickin

Since moving South 17 years ago I have always been fascinated with cotton fields. The first time I saw one was on a road trip to New Mexico with dad. I made him pull over so I could "pick cotton". Since then I have always enjoyed seeing the cotton fields when we travel. Sounds silly I know but it's just not something you see in the NW. Davis,when you were 4 or 5 we had to stop and "pick cotton", and on a recent trip to Texas we had to stop and "pick cotton"AGAIN, for Sophie's sake. Sophie I knew you would be excited, and Davis I knew you wouldn't stay in the car for too long, thanks for joining us! I know you were just stretching your legs. Dad, thanks for always cheerfully tolerating my strange requests. So here you have it a few "cotton pickin" pics

New Birth's 2010

Haven't been as consistent about posting as I would like. I love to look back at my old posts from time to time and catch up on what we've been doing around the Brown house, as I seem to forget things a lot.

So, Davis we want you to know we are overjoyed at your decision to put on Christ in baptism last Sunday evening (January 10, 2010). We know that you have have been contemplating this decision for quite some time. Your decision to follow Jesus makes us so happy. We have prayed from the very beginning of your life that you would commit your life to Christ. We will continue to pray that you live for Jesus in your daily choices, struggles, and victories. And don't forget Sophie's comment to you as we were leaving the church "Brother, thank you for getting baptized!"

With that new birth for 2010 we are also anticipating the arrival of another birth in August, as you know. Sorry I haven't been myself these past weeks. I know I have been grumpy, tired, unenergetic, and a bit snippy at times. Unenergetic is not a word by the way. Things should and will get better. I am 11 weeks along and symptoms are slowly subsiding, thank goodness because it's hard to teach those middle schoolers when I feel so crummy, much less can hardly run to the bathroom. Sophie thank you for all the name suggestions, I am certainly keeping them in mind. In fact one of your girl names is a front runner. Davis I could use a little help here! Any boy names you can think of?

Well it's time to get motivated and take a shower...

8 weeks and counting!!!

So there is really a baby in there and it's growing and thriving! 2 weeks ago the heartbeat was 113, and yesterday 168! We were thrilled!!! I will have progesterone levels checked Monday. I feel like they have come up because I have "morning sickness" all day for the most part. If that has anything to do with it??? Well 2010 will be an eventful year at the Brown house! Many blessings to you and your family!