Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Before I was a Mom...


Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on. Pooped on. Chewed on. Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night.
Before I was a Mom I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests. Or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.
Before I was a Mom I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.
Before I was a Mom I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.
Before I was a Mom I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

6 comments:

rebeckaoneal said...

hey we are going to orlando!! for a week i cant wait

Anita said...

Beautiful! Being a mom is THE most awesome thing I'll ever do...

Curly said...

I know this isn't the post you wanted me you read, but it is awesome!

Elizabeth said...

You make it sound so awesome. I hope I get to experience it someday soon.

Anita said...

(PS: you have an award to pick up at my blog! ;)

Audrey said...

Wow, what a wonderful post. I was only 23 when I had my first child and had no young cousins, no nieces, nephews etc. The first being spit up on was quite a culture shock experience. Thanks for the awesome post.